If anybody's even still here, I'm not.
Everything's at my tumblr now, if you give a shit.
http://millarca.tumblr.com
I had the IVF. It worked. I was pregnant. Then I wasn't anymore. Last week I miscarried. My life is shit and I wish I were dead.
Them's the breaks.
I don't really see myself ever using this blog again.

Cat-baiting.

THIS is how to spend an afternoon. Cat-baiting, with interesting skritching noises under the blanket, using the webcam to see her sneaking up, because if you look at her directly, she will ABORT ABORT her pursuit of skritching. <3 <3 <3

Tumblr has stolen my heart, but this belongs here.

Or, apparently, no.

That last post? The "inhibition" photo?
Someone reported me for it on Facebook.
Seriously.
Someone who does not have the balls to fess up so I can block their pathetic ass.

Oh well. I mostly just wanted to post this because it made me lol.

The end.

Yes.

Happy Birthday Marilyn.

You make me brave. You make me okay. You make me. Gemini twin sister lover best secret mirror self friend warning nestmate candle forever.

It's been awhile. I know it's not Sunday yet. Know how much I care?

Sunday Stealing: The Just Because Meme

1. Make a list of 5 things you can see without getting up.
Awesome Clone Wars rug
Awesome Batman clock
Sweater in progress
Signed photo of Billy Dee Williams
Batmonkey



2. How do you style your hair? How often do you cut it?
It's just... um... Like this:

I should probably take the shaved half down again sometime soon. I don't cut it on any regular schedule, though. Trying to grow the long half out.

3. What are you wearing now?
Teal sweater, jeans, shitton of jewelry.

4. What's your occupation? Do you like it?
Trophy housewife. Love it.

5. When was the last time that you took a nap? Was there a special reason?
Hm. It's been some time, actually. I can't remember. Usually it's just because I'm lazy.

6. Who was the last person you hugged romantically?
My husband.

8. What was the last full meal that you ate?
I had some Reggae Reggae Curry Noodles a couple hours ago. That's as close to a full meal as I usually get.


9. What was the last email that you received?
Facebook comment notification.



10. What one website do you always visit when you go online?
Ravelry.


11. What was the last significant thing you bought?
How do you define significant? I spent rather a significant amount of birthday money recently, but on fairly trivial things. Mostly makeup. I did a pretty big Sweet Libertine order a couple days ago.

12. What musical artist did you not get at first, but then became a fan?
I wouldn't say I didn't *get* them, but I did try and deny my love for the Backstreet Boys for a very long time. I gave up. THEY ARE DREEEEEAMY.

13. What do you think about before you go to bed last night?
I'm rereading From Hell, so mostly I've been thinking about grapes and prostitutes and Alan Moore's beard.

14. What was the last CD you bought?
Taylor Swift

15. What is your favorite weather, and why? What's the weather like today?
I need sun to live. Today it's grey and rainy and miserable.

16. If you could have a special artistic talent, what would it be?
Oh god, I wish I could do anything, but lately I've been desperate to be able to draw. I just can't.

17. Did you watch the Idol 9 finale? If yes, what are your thoughts?
Fuck that shit. I will never understand America's madness for forgettable, interchangeable, bland, easy-listening, douchebaggy, soft "rock" guys. Crystal should've won.

18. What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
WTF dude, we went to school together for four years, my bff stalked you in a ridiculous manner, YOU KNEW ME. Why don't you remember me? I am so confused.

19. Any special plans for this (holiday in the States) weekend?
It's a holiday in the UK as well. And not really. We're going to the inlaws' for a joint birthday dinner for me & my BIL on Monday. I will hopefully get some more presents.


20. Besides your current S/O, who was the last person that you loved romantically?
A really very sweet guy who I just didn't quite love as much as I did the guy who would eventually become my husband.